fool

I've been struggling a lot emotionally these last few months, maybe this last year. Things made my self-esteem go down to one of its lowest points in my life. I've already had issues with my self confidence, but it has grown into a fearful, paranoid state of mind, most specifically with intimacy and relationships.

I imagine moments like these as if they were never to come back again. They don't really feel like mine anymore. Not even close to a dream, or a fantasy. Just something far away from me.

Quand tout à coup l'amour n'est plus que douleur au fond de notre être et que plus aucune fenêtre ne laisse passer le beau temps.